hemmm

we started to confide in session this time. we talk about friends. I have friend, perfectly, like it gives motivation, like to give recommendations, he's older than me, use glasses, and he is a boy. i am confused but im not jeaolus! maybe ini yang juga dirasakan sama his best friend before me.

.... ya itu dulu ...

first i meet him, when junior high school but we never talk. and then we meet again in senior high school. one time i think he's a brutal but i wrong (but surely its sometimes). he have a good best friend, he and she always together, always smile and laugh together. dimana ada dia selalu ada dia. and the next grade, they severance, not in same class, but he and me in same class. she always come to my class, and always talk with me and he. and then we can be a close friend (teman dekat). 

but day by day, he and me always together because my chairmate sometimes not go to school because sickness. when i alonely, i always with him (sometimes sih).

but one day, his a good best friend be mad to me. whats my problem? i think i never do something to her. and then she never come to my class again (actually surelly more more more important). and i still close (dekat) with him. oke he's funny, he's smart, he like give me motivation and recomendation to me. oke i like him but as friend ya just FRIEND! 

but someday i know my problem his a good best friend and i. i confused. i think i wrong. and you know how apa yang dirasakan she itu sama apa yang aku rasakan setelah he to be friendly with *****. aku ga marah sama ***** tapi ya gimana sih perasaan kita kalo teman yang udah hampir dekat sedekat dekatnya diambil gitu aja. aku ngejauhin he bukan karena aku marah kok garagara he berteman sama ***** tapi cuma gamau bikin masalah sama gamau bikin dosa aja. kan faktanya kalo aku makin ngeliat kalian dekat ya berasa aja kayak gimana gitu lah tapi kalo liat per individu aku ga semarah itu kok, serius! jangan merasa bersalah, aku juga pernah diposisi she sama diposisi *****, dan aku bakal ngambil langkah aman yaitu menjauh dari you you and you.